Thoughts-My Ryan has turned 3
Time really flies, still remember 3 years back, 28 June 2005, this time of the year, I delivered Ryan and now my darling boy has turned 3.
Somehow don't know why, suddenly have alot of mixed feelings when my darling Ryan turned 3. Guess I can't believed that I have been a mummy for 3 years already, not only to one darling but a mummy to two darlings.
Is so UNBELIEVEABLE!!
Can't really imagine, a small baby growing and staying in my tummy, for nine months, now have become so big and growing bigger everyday.
It is very amazing how motherhood is and how it has transformed me. IT has taught me alot of things, and I'm still learning everyday. Besides that it also makes me do alot of things that I never thought that I will do. Things that I'm afraid to do but still I have to pluck up my courage to do it for them. It sort of like "brush" and gear me up to be more brave for the sake of my kids.
Most important lesson that I have learned - SELF-LESS LOVE. I cannot be as wilful as before, cannot be self-centered. I have to think of them in everything I do. I will do anything for them, even to the expense of sacrificing myself, putting down my pride etc.
There are alot of ups and downs, hardships..the road is definitely not easy, in fact quite bumpy but of cos there are alot of joys and laughter along the way.
Many things have happened and everything happened too fast. It made me realised that most of the time in life, we tend to take alot of things for granted. We will only start to treasure what we have when something suddenly happened and we have lost it.
Very sadly and unfortunately, i'm one of such people. I used to think that there is always time but in fact, time waits for no one. If you don't seize the moment and do it, you will never have another chance. Just like my darlings' childhood, once I missed it, it will always be lost. In life, we do not always get a second chance, so we should grab it while we can.
Often it is already too late when we come to this realisation. I try to seek for answers but realised there is no answers to everything and that's life.
I have always wished to marry a man that I loved whom also loved me back and accept me for who I am. Together, we will build up a family that belongs solely to us. We will have our own children - one boy and one girl. Our boy will be the eldest and our girl will be the youngest. We will raise them up, watch them grow up, graduate, work, start a family of their own, the arrival of our grandchildren and growing old together.
This has always been my dreams. IT all came true for the first few parts.
What is HAPPINESS? I realised that very very little and simple things in life can be a form of Happiness. This is what my happiness is. I could not have ask for more and I should not have any regrets already.
You never know,
when you'll find,
what your heart is yearning for,
all you seek,
could be there,
just a breath away.
What I have always wanted - is right here in my arms. They are the best things that have ever happened to me.
I should count my blessings, treasure it and be contented with what I have:
MY precious darlings - Ryan and Chloe!
It's magic, when you are here beside me
Close your eyes and let me hold you tight
Everything, that I could ever need is
Right here in my arms tonight
My love... Is always with you
Whether near or far
How sweet to hold you
Right here in my arms tonight
Somehow don't know why, suddenly have alot of mixed feelings when my darling Ryan turned 3. Guess I can't believed that I have been a mummy for 3 years already, not only to one darling but a mummy to two darlings.
Is so UNBELIEVEABLE!!
Can't really imagine, a small baby growing and staying in my tummy, for nine months, now have become so big and growing bigger everyday.
It is very amazing how motherhood is and how it has transformed me. IT has taught me alot of things, and I'm still learning everyday. Besides that it also makes me do alot of things that I never thought that I will do. Things that I'm afraid to do but still I have to pluck up my courage to do it for them. It sort of like "brush" and gear me up to be more brave for the sake of my kids.
Most important lesson that I have learned - SELF-LESS LOVE. I cannot be as wilful as before, cannot be self-centered. I have to think of them in everything I do. I will do anything for them, even to the expense of sacrificing myself, putting down my pride etc.
There are alot of ups and downs, hardships..the road is definitely not easy, in fact quite bumpy but of cos there are alot of joys and laughter along the way.
Many things have happened and everything happened too fast. It made me realised that most of the time in life, we tend to take alot of things for granted. We will only start to treasure what we have when something suddenly happened and we have lost it.
Very sadly and unfortunately, i'm one of such people. I used to think that there is always time but in fact, time waits for no one. If you don't seize the moment and do it, you will never have another chance. Just like my darlings' childhood, once I missed it, it will always be lost. In life, we do not always get a second chance, so we should grab it while we can.
Often it is already too late when we come to this realisation. I try to seek for answers but realised there is no answers to everything and that's life.
I have always wished to marry a man that I loved whom also loved me back and accept me for who I am. Together, we will build up a family that belongs solely to us. We will have our own children - one boy and one girl. Our boy will be the eldest and our girl will be the youngest. We will raise them up, watch them grow up, graduate, work, start a family of their own, the arrival of our grandchildren and growing old together.
This has always been my dreams. IT all came true for the first few parts.
What is HAPPINESS? I realised that very very little and simple things in life can be a form of Happiness. This is what my happiness is. I could not have ask for more and I should not have any regrets already.
You never know,
when you'll find,
what your heart is yearning for,
all you seek,
could be there,
just a breath away.
What I have always wanted - is right here in my arms. They are the best things that have ever happened to me.
I should count my blessings, treasure it and be contented with what I have:
MY precious darlings - Ryan and Chloe!
It's magic, when you are here beside me
Close your eyes and let me hold you tight
Everything, that I could ever need is
Right here in my arms tonight
My love... Is always with you
Whether near or far
How sweet to hold you
Right here in my arms tonight
I do not know what will happen tomorrow, the day after tomorrow or in the future. Who knows I may not be around tomorrow or live long enough to watch my darlings grow up.
But I do know that just like every mother in this world, my greatest wish is that my darlings will be healthy, grow up to be a good and useful person and most important of all, be HAPPY always, have a positive outlook and never GIVE UP in life no matter what happens.
Mummy loves you!
posted by ZheLins' Mummy @ 12:03 AM
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